A few months ago I told you the story of how I won and booked a writing retreat. At that time, it seemed to be very far off but today it is so close that it seems time has flown. Tomorrow morning I will be packing up my car and heading east for Vermont and the When Words Count retreat. I am incredibly excited and nervous at the same time. With the time to leave so close, I wonder how strongly nerves will affect me tomorrow. Although this isn’t my first road trip, it is the first time I will be traveling alone. As a woman, I am conditioned to believe that it isn’t safe for me to travel alone in this way. As a person who has anxiety issues I’m even less inclined to make a solo trip. But I am determined to do this.
I don’t have anything to prove to anyone else. This is for me. I want to prove to myself that I can do this, that I can be independent. I think this trip will help me grow as a person by helping to banish some of my fears. It’s also an opportunity for me to do something that is completely for myself and for no one else. When I read those words, it sounds a little selfish and maybe it is but I think that a person has to take care of one’s self in order to be effective at taking care of others. I spend much of my time taking care of others or worrying about them. So I’m allowing myself this one week to myself and my writing. I hope to find some freedom in it and to be very productive too.
This is so exciting! I can’t wait to get on the road tomorrow! I’ll update soon!